Hi Scorch, it's N!n@~ now, who is speaking to you, I read your text and I think it's very nice, you are a very good writer, and i'm happy to see that you want at the end turn this page of your life ! Dunno what the future can be but I wish you the better in love !!! Your soulmate in maybe just near you and you don't see her !!! Cu and good luck!!! you must continue to write things like that because it's very well !!! and good for yourself tooo, writing can be a therapy, you see, it works for you !!!